I am terrible at being ill. I imagine that if you just get up and get on with things, you’ll be ok. If I ever take time off, I consider what jobs I could do at home to fill up the time. But I have had to give in this time. The inner ear infection has wiped me out for the last week and things have still not improved. I am defeated by simple tasks and the effort of getting up and getting dressed makes me cry with fatigue. I am not used to this.
But today, I gave in. Not just by taking time off, but by deciding to do exactly what the doctor said and to lie down until I feel well enough to get up. Apart from visiting L, this is what I intend to do. I am genuinely worried that if I don’t do this, I just won’t get better. And I need to be well, to support L and to get back to work.